Friday, August 31, 2007

Malaysia celebrates 50th Merdeka Day!


It's today, Ryan. 31st August, 2007. We are all proud to be Malaysian... Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!


Stressful?

"There is nothing wrong with you. You can see it clearly in the screen now... it is very clean and you are not pregnant," uttered Dr Lee to mom. Mom accepted the fact openly after having done the HPT thrice. The third time was conducted by Dr Lee's nurse to confirm his findings. As planned, right after work on Monday, mom headed to this maternity clinic which is situated 2 minutes drive from Grandma's house. Infact, this is the clinic that Grandma delivered Ee Ee and Ee Yo many many years ago.

"Stress could be one of the reason," continued Dr Lee. "Come and see me if your menses did not arrive in 2 weeks time."

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Negative?

Mom had been contemplating whether to do the HCG test again this morning. The decision was so hard to make as mom did not want to be dissappointed again. On the other hand, mom's curiosity was intensely high. It has been the 10th day now that mom missed menses. This is just not normal. As mom grabbed the HPT and headed to the bathroom, mom could feel the heart pumping at a greater speed than normal. "What if the line doesn't show up in the window again?" And true enough the result was a negative. Feeling depressed, mom walked out from the bathroom and headed back to the bedroom. Mom gave Ryan a peck on the forehead. Ryan's forehead was a little cold and mom reached the air-cond remote control to switched it off. Ryan was still fast asleep and mom did not want to wake you up. Mom could only stare at Ryan's chubby face but mom's head was full of questions. Papa is in China now and will only be back in a week's time.

"What is wrong?"

Later in the afternoon, at Grandma's house, mom did a lot of reading from different sources in the internet and went through some forums put up by several groups. Mom's experience is nothing uncommon. The only thing to do now is to make a visit to the gynaecologist. Mom attempted an appointment with Dr. Ng but his schedule seems to be quite full. Managed to get a slot at 4.15pm on the 6th of September, 2007. Another 2 more weeks to go.. It could a good thing to at least get a slot with him and asked for his advice on getting pregnant again. It has been always difficult to make appointment with Dr Ng through the nurses sitting at the front desk of the OB clinic at this Hospital. Mom had a tough one too with the nurse today who was trying to turn down mom's request for an appointment.

Thinking back when mom was anticipating menses to arrive on 16th Aug, and it didn't happen. Mom then waited another 3 days and yet, mom's menses still haven't arrived. Feeling delighted, mom just let the days passed by naturally and was waiting anxiously for the right time to conduct the HCG test. Mom picked 23rd Aug, as on this day, Papa is leaving for China and mom wanted to give Papa the so-called "good news". However, the overly excited moment turned into a doubtful situation when the result was a negative. Mom dropped Papa at Grandma's house and Ee Ya then drove Papa to the airport. Mom broke the news to Grandma and of course Grandma consoled mom by saying it was too early to take the test. Mom told Ee Ya the same thing too. At work, mom was keeping things done at a relatively slower pace. Nevertheless, jobs were executed before leaving for home.

Tears started falling only when mom was driving back home.....

Mom may be visiting another gyny to get some ultra-sound scanning done to validate the HCG test result tomorrow evening.